When a disabled (when it comes to games) child starts to play with PS2

<cloudi> a jellyfish defeated me
<kubuś> in a life-death combat?
<cloudi> yeah
<kubuś> [*]

Finally I can play Final Fantasy X (forgive me the lame pun). After lots of adventures like:

• not having a working TV in AV mode,
• taking console to friend's place (who has a working TV), yet forgetting to actually pack the games,
• borrowing a TV from friends,
• yet not borrowing an adapter so the cinch cables would magically turn into SCART input

I can play this stupid game that was so much recommended by some.

To other impaired people who don't know what this games is about: I'm some blond dude who looks like just taken from Baywatch cast. His city was attacked by a giant flying water sphere (he was sucked into it) and now he wakes up 1000 years later (Sleeping Beauty) and from what I've gathered he's trying to find his way home (E.T.). Innovative, right?*

Generally I'm not into this kind of games and it is a little bit painful for me to watch. Especially with hours of that cut scenes. I am playing this just for 2-3h and I tell you I have seen hours of films there. It's like a movie on Polsat channel where the commercials are sometimes interrupted by a film. But I found it handy, thanks to those I could finish my supper without the need to pause the game.

Which brings us to the gaming system. Pick action, pick enemy, do the action, wait for your turn. Seems boring. However! after a while it appears that the characters have few interesting moves and attacks. I especially love summoning that giant flying creature by Yuna (here I would like to greet Juli who looks just like this animated character) or using black magic by Lulu who, for your information, wanders around with a teddy-bear. If we add to the picture that she looks like emo geisha, I think that we can agree that Japanese are running on some strong drugs.

Keep that up boys! Because I'm really enjoying this game.

*Actually I can tell you about other things/names. Because the 3rd location I'm visiting looks like Hawaii. I think that S. told me the name of that place, but I think that "Hawaii" fits better. After a quick run over that place and fighting with stranger creatures (blob, Blue Lion form the Land of The OZ) we jump on a sea ship and get attacked by Sin (a local version of Cracken) I was hoping for Johnny Depp appearing on the board, but no luck. And I thought that Japanese would know what a fan service is :<

I'm tired. I'm seriously tired, because of this mourning. Yet it's not because of the tv coverage or the fact that people talk about it the whole time. Believe it or not - I think this is needed. Either as a psychology mass-treatment or by finding out why this accident occurred.

I haven't lost anyone in that plane crush. But my friend did. And it's devastating enough to see someone who is always happy, serene so devastated. To see him helpless and angry because of it. To hear his voice which breaks with every word.

But what saddens and tires me is people's reaction. Maybe not of the majority, but a growing part of "indifferent cynics." I understand that not everyone is personally affected by what happened just few days ago, but I would be thankful for understanding from their side that some people want to grieve and for those 2-3 days. Finding guilty (though I prefer not to call it this way, rather "finding the cause of the accident") and making political decisions is few days or weeks away. So why bring it by brute force now?

I know that some just show off and put [*] or join facebook groups. Is that shallow? I don't know and I don't care. Maybe they were raised that they think it's enough and that they're showing their sorrow this way. I would prefer to go for a walk, think or simply light a candle which in fact I did. Maybe it's just a demonstration, but it helps to cope with it.

A situation today which totally made me lost of words was my boss' and co-workers reaction. Some of them sell advertisements and the question was if they should bother customers or leave the topic for the week. Maybe shorter. In the end it was decided that they may and just after that some stupid jokes came. That they may advertise chocolate there, because it fits the black & white layout, or that "now you can send obituary with our chocolate telegram." I have distance towards most of things, but these jokes were just tasteless -_-'

I'm sorry, but even I am not a heartless person who will not notice that almost 100 people died in tragic circumstances and will behave like nothing happened.